Posted by gardenergirl on May 21, 2005, at 12:34:00
In reply to Re: It Seems Mostly Alright Now » Annierose, posted by 10derHeart on May 21, 2005, at 8:34:33
I don't think your post was too long. (But then I get a bit wordy, myself.) :)
But you had an entire session to report on, and that's a lot of stuff.
I remember the "wanting everything to be allright in that next session back" feeling. In fact, a lot of that session, after we talked about the prior session stuff, was about exactly that...how I still didn't feel safe or connected, and how bad THAT still felt. It was hard to leave that day knowing it wasn't "all fixed". I'm glad your T recognized that you might still be upset when he asked if you were okay at the end. I would imagine that felt great when he asked. And I'm glad he respects your boundaries. It sounds like you two have a good working relationship. Sometimes the work, though, is about the relationship, and that always seems more intense.
It will get better if you keep talking. It's getting better for me, but it is also fundamentally changed, knowing that he can make mistakes. It's hard when idealized folks come down off the pedestal. Makes things much more vulnerable.
Thanks for sharing this with us.
((((10)))))
gg
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