Posted by JenStar on May 16, 2005, at 15:43:37
In reply to it's out and i feel worse. ****BIG TRIGGER****, posted by B2chica on May 16, 2005, at 11:27:05
Yeah, you ARE lucky the pills didn't do worse! Don't do that again! You're worth more than that - so much more.
B2, I think it's a huge step that you're admitting past abuse. Now your T can help you work through it. None of it was ever your fault - and you didn't deserve it. And you're still a worthy person who should treat herself with respect and dignity.
It sounds like you're very angry and upset, bringing out all these feelings. Your T will help you work through it if you give him a chance. Don't feel like you need to think there are negative connotations to his words and phrases, but please take him at face value. Of COURSE he's not suggesting that it's "normal" or "ok" to be abused! I think that's your own lack of self-respect there -- you're assuming that because he didn't respond the way you wanted/expected, it MUST mean that he's demeaning you or your situation. So give him a chance and believe him. ABuse is sadly very common; there are going to be lots of resources and places you can get counseling, support and help. You're NOT alone. And your T DOES want to help you!
Take care of yourself and respect yourself. You deserve it. :)
JenStar
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