Posted by messadivoce on April 23, 2005, at 2:26:17
In reply to Re: Marking anniversaries » messadivoce, posted by Dinah on April 21, 2005, at 11:15:20
Dinah, I have wanted to respond to you so badly, but couldn't work up the words. I wish that I could say that my relationship with my dad has improved because of the oedipal transference I had with my T, but it's simply not true. My dad doesn't even really know me, doesn't have a clue about the pain I'm in, and wouldn't know what to do if he did know.
I think of all people, my fiance has benefitted the most from my therapy. Even though I can't rehash my feelings about my former T with him (we've been there, done that, and like a typical guy, once it's over it's over). I think he feels a tiny bit of jealousy and I know it bothers him that this hurts me and he can't do anything to make it better (another guy thing). I don't know what I'm trying to say, I'm just rambling and making excuses for myself.
Everything these days is a trigger for me. I'll be so glad when this anniversary is past. I'm such a messy, soggy, pathetic ball of emotion right now. You could probably use me to mop the floor.
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