Posted by Susan47 on April 18, 2005, at 11:50:43
When a T looks at a client in a sexual way, and he's either aware or not aware of it ... and he never says anything about it, and you don't know what to make of it because you know you're sexually attracted to him ... what are you supposed to do? Because thinking he might be sexually attracted to you, makes you a sexual creature, which is lovely and all, but it has a lot of responsibility attached, you know? And what if you think he's attractive but he's not thinking anything special about you, at all, that's just the way he is you see, he does this all the time .. so is he a tease, does that make him a tease, then? Knowing how you feel about him, and he never ever brings it up, he's scared to mention the subject, but it's the ONLY subject, you see, is how you feel about yourself is that you're so ugly you're just humiliating yourself with your feelings. Your desire is unwanted, which partly what makes it so titillating, you know, because you know this is all just a big game in your head, but damn it, if it's only in your head, then when he looked at you That Way, you know, does that mean you hallucinate now, as an adult, when you did it as a child too?
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