Posted by pinkeye on March 30, 2005, at 13:15:56
In reply to Night Times - trigger, posted by daisym on March 30, 2005, at 0:07:28
Daisy,
You are right in feeling so angry. Any human would in your situation. And you are absolutely right in whatever mental stress you are going through. You are handling it much better than most others - not taking it out on your kid and trying to see through and reason.You are a wonderful person.
Allow yourself to vent it out in some way. Scream at your therapist if you need to. He seeems like an extraordinary human being, and you must have done something very very good in your previous birth to have him as your therapist. Maybe, God sent you him to compensate for what you had to go through in your childhood.
But do say a strict no to self hurt - You don't want to let this therapist down - ever. He deserves much much more than that. For all he has done for you. If your kids are not enough, for now, think of your therapist - think to what extent he is going to help you and what you would be doing to him if you hurt yourself. You don't want to do that. That is what I tell myself in my worst moments. I made a promise to my ex T that I would live well whatever happens, and that more than for me, I hold it for him.
I seriously think you should go for some jogging or do some rigorous exercise - if your health permits it. That will relieve a lot of stress and direct your anger elsewhere. Don't bottle it up.
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