Posted by Shortelise on January 5, 2005, at 0:50:31
In reply to Terrible Time!, posted by Speaker on January 4, 2005, at 20:41:53
I agree with Dinah, too.
Sometimes it has seemed to me that I have had to vomit out all of the horrible things, that the grief and the hurt and the anger had to spew out of me like magma from a volcano, like poison from a drunk, from all ends.
Feeling these feelings is painful (like I need to tell you that) and in a sense one has to relive the events to find and get rid of the poison they have left behind.
But when it's all out there, when it's said and refelt, sh*t and vomited out, it doesn't seem to go away, but it becomes more serene, more a part of what WAS instead of so very much still a part of what IS.
I hope I am making sense. This is so important, though, and I do hope you see that I am trying to say that this may be the hardest part, and after it could begin to get better. For me it was very slow, and there are moments still when I fall back into the boil, but those moments are far fewer than six years ago, and far easier to get through.
My shrink suggests that I stay in the feeling, and that I just feel it, and later we try to put words to it. This has worked for me.
Hugs, speaker. I believe you are healing.
ShortE
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