Posted by alexandra_k on January 1, 2005, at 23:27:45
In reply to Re: Idealizing » alexandra_k, posted by Dinah on January 1, 2005, at 21:37:39
> Why would you say that, Alexandra? I think this is where I first met you, isn't it?
Yeah, it is. I remember you and gg in particular from when I joined up when I was in Australia.
Because it is too hard for me. To be reading and thinking about what it is that I am missing out on. Because I think IT IS NOT FAIR and then the way is paved for rage. Because it isn't anybodys fault, and it is especially not the fault of anybody here. But my rage doesn't care so much where it is aimed. Because I need to just forget about therapy. To move on. To decide what the hell I am going to do. I could spin out try to kill myself and maybe end up back in hospital. I could just get through this somehow without bugging anyone from the service. I would prefer the latter. In a calm moment. But then the panic starts up and I don't care anymore. Easier to deal if I just avoid. I am sorry. It is my weakness.
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