Posted by alexandra_k on October 3, 2004, at 19:07:11
Well, three including Eliza.
I hadn't seen my P-doc for three weeks because he was off sick for two weeks and then he broke his tooth...
I'm not going to Ashburn. I was annoyed that because there is nobody in this region who will give me psychotherapy that I had to go into hospital in a different region in the hope that someone there would work with me.
So my P-doc has said that seeing as there is nobody else he has decided that he will give me therapy. All he can give me (in terms of time) is one session every two weeks though.
I haven't told him that I started seeing someone at varsity. That she is trying to see me weekly.
I am sick of putting all my eggs into one basket only to find that the basket doesn't want to see me anymore. Or that something happens and they decide to leave the service or whatever.
I know I should be feeling really happy now. That is what I have wanted for a long time - for a p-doc to give me psychotherapy. But I don't feel happy, I feel like I've twisted his arm because nobody else would see me. And I am angry and disappointed that my needs are frustrated so much by others. I hate myself for needing this. I know treatment isn't a right it is a priveledge. It is hard to see the world as a nice place when everyone has always being trying to dump you off on somebody else all your life.
Am I going to mess this up by being angry rather than grateful?
Am I two-timing by seeing them both?
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thread:398630
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