Posted by mair on June 28, 2004, at 11:14:54
In reply to sad and scared, posted by LG04 on June 28, 2004, at 10:18:24
This is really tough, and I do know what you're talking about. Although I've worked pretty hard not to get attached to my therapist, some of those defenses are breaking down and it certainly does make me feel vulnerable.
I think you should look at your last visit as being one for 2 months only and not the last visit "forever." I think viewing it as permanent will just put too much pressure on you . I also think you may do better without her than you imagine. I flounder when my therapist is on vacation, but tend to do ok when I'm the one who is away. I guess it's a matter of being away from all of the things that remind me of her, and being drawn away from the rut of a familiar daily routine. I don't mean to diminish your worries at all; I just think you can't be certain how things will play out.
It's great that you're able to acknowledge to her the depth of your feelings and it's great she's willing to work with you on this, even if only by phone.
I don't know what to say about your sorrow that she means more to you than you do to her. I think this knowledge is what makes people like me resist attachments to begin with. But she does care and you know that she cares and you've acknowledged on this Board that your relationship with your therapist is very close on the part of both of you, so please hold onto that.
mair
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