Posted by KindGirl on April 21, 2004, at 1:44:28
Anyone else deal with this? I am finding myself very jealous of any one seeing my t. I am spoiled because I see her right before lunch, so there is nobody after me, and most of the time there is nobody before me, but lately there is a girl before me and I find myself getting very angry right before my session (like 30 seconds before she opens the door) and then I get all flustered inside....what is with that?
I know In Session talks about this in that section where she says it is like you have to hurry and put your clothes on so someone else can "use" your therapist on YOUR couch and it does feel like that a lot.
I want to be as big to my T. as she is to me. She is in my thoughts constantly when I am not with her, and I know I am not in hers and that kills me. I want a mom so bad...I wish my t. was my mom and I could call her tonight and not worry about paying for the call or bugging her or not having a good reason for calling....but that is not what is going to happen and I am very sad tonight about all of this.
Also, I called her today and she didn't call me back and it is times like this when I am slammed in the face with the fact that I am a client who pays for her time and it makes me conclude that I mean nothing to her and she'll forget about me once I am gone. This is very immature thinking but what is real tonight.
Any thoughts or help for me? Thanks.
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