Posted by 1980Monroe on April 18, 2004, at 23:20:39
In reply to Social isolation: Depression or Anxiety?, posted by MrSandman on April 16, 2004, at 4:03:43
I copied and pasted every word, onto Micro. Word and saved it. It was long, long, but i read it in sections. No i really was not a true drug user, i just used it to because it forced me to get involved, i was soo filled with motivation and euphoria i wouldnt shut up, and me feel good about myself for once.
My usual self was locked up, i was comfortable just sitting and saying nothing, mainly becuase previously i had bad annoying social skills, i didnt know how to relate well, i think mainly i because i always had abstract intests, when i was 4 i got obessed with vacumme cleaners, and i wanted to run them all the time, i mean whats so intriging about a simple vancume cleaner?
I never was really intested in what the crowd was in, i think that is a big contribution.
But then I realized how increadibly messed up i was, i went throught horrible emotional problems, breakdowns, outcries, breakdown crying on the floor all the time about how messed up i was, almost everyday. Whew! thank god im out of that stage.
Suicide was planned almost every week, but thank goodness i reasoned with my self and got better. Rejection and Isolation i believe were the main radiant.
I started doing cocaine at that point because it made it seem not so bad, and i felt alot better about myself. It helped for a while, to get throught the worst of it, but then i got better, and terminated usage.
I still plan to go to hypnotherapy and get them to fix me, and make my intrests and my life normal. Lets hope for the best, but thanks for your convern its really apprieciated.
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