Posted by Pandabear on April 12, 2004, at 19:43:49
Ok, I am getting a second opinion about what is going on with me on Thursday from a different therapist but,Im so frustrated. I told my therapists at my last session that I wanted to come in one more time before my second opinion and she said I could but when I went to schedule it..I was told that she didnt have any openings until MAY. I was so irritated. Granted I know that she has a really busy schedule and I understand this but, I hate not being able to get ahold of her. She has also STOPPED calling me back when I call her..not only her but my psychiatrist as well has stopped. I think they feel like they are being theraputic by making me wait to talk to them but IM SORRY..my next appt with my therapist is NOW NOT UNTIL may 19th. I know some of you might be thinking that this isnt a big deal..but I have been going once a week to her and now its like they are completely ignoring me. I left a message trying to get ahold of my therapist after i got home from work and NORMALY she would call me since she is there until six..but, she didnt. Now, she is going to be calling me tomorrow and I WONT BE HOME..so she will start thinking that Im ignoring her when really im at work. I would have her call my work but im not allowed to take her calls there anymore. Im so frustrated. I feel like I cannot have any contact with either of my doctors and that they are just looking at my calls like I am someone with no control. I cannot wait until May to see my therapist. PlUS, hang in here..im fortune telling..) but, what if my therapist that im getting a second opinion with thinks that im NOT bipolar..and i tell them what she says...will they then feel that they should terminate me since I have an opinion that I might not be bipolar? I dont want to stop coming to my therapist..I like her a lot she is just really frustrating me right now and I KNOW she is doing this on purpose..but I cannot handle it. I will probably be going over there tomorrow to talk to her if she tries to call me and misses..I dont know what to do. I feel like they both hate me so much. They put a boundary on my calling them and it hurts so bad. What am I going to do if I REALLY NEED THEM and yet they wont return my call. I dont know what I will do. I have some pretty significant things coming up in my life that I know im going to need help with ..HECK I hae some big things now..But i cannot get their attention. I want to scream at them so badly but I know that if I do this they will probably throw me in the hospital. They are really scaring me. I dont know how to handle this. I need someone to talk to and the person i normally talk to..my therapist..is distancing herself from me. What can I do?
poster:Pandabear
thread:335700
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