Posted by DaisyM on February 17, 2004, at 23:23:44
In reply to Re: You're all easy graders » DaisyM, posted by fallsfall on February 17, 2004, at 13:24:33
I know you are right but I can't let him know all of the real me because right now I don't know who I am completely. I think it is amazing that you are allowing your soul to show through in therapy. You are brave to do this.
When I first started therapy I actually said, "I've forgotten how to have fun." I've never found baths, massages or nature hikes relaxing. I get bored fast, I even watch TV while reading or working on my computer. Always multi-task was a lesson learned from mom very early on. Plus I'm a clutz...I do OK playing with little kids for awhile though. Maybe that is a thread to consider - how to have fun. How to play.
I'm realizing more and more that it isn't my Therapist that I don't trust. I don't trust myself to handle all these intense emotions. I can feel the urge to run from therapy taking over again. I know people take breaks sometimes. I'm telling myself it is just because I felt really exposed and vulnerable yesterday.
I do hear you though. I'm trying. It is painful and hard and scary. And I'm worried that I'll find out that the little kid inside me is a brat and deserved some of what she got.
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