Posted by Karen_kay on January 31, 2004, at 11:07:23
In reply to Re: Definition of Progress, posted by Miss Honeychurch on January 31, 2004, at 10:12:52
Oh, the fashion bug... It was a tug of war with me and my therapist. He would always say, "Now, you don't have to dress up for me." But he would always comment on how nice I looked. So, he's sending mixed messages. What's a girl to do? Of course I still dress up for therapy :) If I were to have five appointments in one day, I'd wear five different outfits.
Daisy, I can come up with a few stories for you:
Once, when I was doing laundry at the laundry mat when I lived in an apartment, a lady was getting change out of a machine and out of nowhere, as the quarters started coming down the hatch, she yelled, "JACKPOT!" I knew I had to go talk to this lady, as she was my kind of gal!
I recently got into a debate with my therapist over who the smarter person is: a rocket scientist or a brain surgeon. He chose a rocket scientist (I still believe a brain surgeon). But, the funny thing is, when I debate my therapist, if my opinion differs from his, I have to laugh because he actually tries to convince me to change my mind. He kept going on and on about how NASA only takes "the best of the best" and that theoretically anyone could learn to be a brain surgeon. He seemed to become rather frustrated when I wouldn't accept his point of view and change my opinion.
Oh, I have something funny! My therapist is rather paranoid about receiving prank phone calls. Well, I checked my caller ID and I've received several phone calls that say "Unknown number." And now I wonder, "Has my therapist been pranking me to get even because he thinks that I've been pranking him?" I'm going to ask him about it, but I fear he's going to think I'm silly. Grrrr... Who in the world has been pranking me now????? Can you catch paranoia?? This is driving me batty!!
*Therapy is very hard and scary. But, it's supposed to be. If it wasn't hard, then the final outcome wouldn't be so great. I know you (and me and everyone) sometimes wonders, "Is it really worth all of this?" But you really have to say yes. And have faith that you can get through it. I think the key is just having faith hun. And it's really hard putting your faith into something that you aren't sure is worth it, or you aren't sure that "everything is going to be ok." But, if it didn't hurt this bad, then the final outcome wouldn't be so good.
I know I constantly ask myself, why don't I just quit now while I'm ahead, but I know I still have so much unfinished business to attend to. And I've never been a quitter. Nope, I'm gonna stick it out, if it takes methe rest of my life. So, if I'm laying on my death bed and I can finally look up and smile and finally say, with my last breath, "You know what, I'm finally happy. I'm not angry or hurt or have any hurt feelings towards anyone anymore!" That's when I know I've finally done it. And I don't think I'll mind all the bad things that happened or the hurt I've gone through. I just want some peace. And I know that day's coming. And I KNOW it's coming for all of us! Just hang in there girlie. It will pass. I promise.
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