Posted by Karen_kay on January 16, 2004, at 17:47:36
In reply to Re: Ages, posted by Elle2021 on January 16, 2004, at 16:44:24
I'd say if others (as in peers) are reading it, then that's a NEGATIVE, no way jose...NOPE nada uh huh...Yeah, self injuring, but don't include personal references (if you do SI)... I used to if you want to use a reference or a source, I'd be happy to give up some of my experiences. But only since it's you and I made you come in last at the beauty pageant :)
I feel guilty because I feel like I invaded his personal life by finding the picture of his old lady. I wouldn't feel guilty if I just found info about him, I don't think so anyway. But since I didn't find info just about him, I found a pic of his wife, I feel insanely guilty. And i wouldn't tell him I find her unattractive. I'd say she was quite lovely. (I'd be lying through my teeth, but he wouldn't know. I lie to him often and I don't think he catches it) I want to believe she's lovely, so if I want to believe something, sometimes I think I can make it happen. Magical thinking???? GRRRRRR! But, it worked in forgetting abuse, so there you go! Proof magical thinking does work in some cases..
No, she looks to be his age. And I really think she looks to be his type actually too. She jsut appears to be very plain jane like. Rather homely. I was expecting a woman more stylish. I don't know, I've actually seen 2 pictures of her (BAD KAREN!!) and she just appears to be plain, rather homely. I guess in a way at the time I was expecting someone more like (dare I say it??) me?
And then if I tell him we'll of course have to talk about how I felt, ect ect and then I'll either have to lie (which won't do me any good) or be honest (which will make me feel like a *%&$$) because I feel like I would be better at choosing a mate for him then he would, ect....
But, I think I really should tell him. I'm jsut afraid that he'll be disappointed in me. He won't say it but he will be.....And he'll understand that it was an accident, but SINCE I'm Borderline, ect. BLAH BLAH BLAH....
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