Posted by Poet on January 5, 2004, at 18:02:55
Last night a bottle of wine and an ambien didn't put me to sleep. Tonight I'm trying two ambiens, no wine. My interview is tomorrow morning 9:30 (central time) and I can't look like a zombie.
I really want the job. It isn't a major step up, title or money wise, but I can do it, I want to do it and I just took a bunch of writing courses that will help me do it well.
Please don't tell me to call my therapist, she has already told me that I have to keep repeating to myself "I am unhappy at work, I need to take risks, and I need to stop blaming myself when I don't get the job."
My brain is just repeating, failure, failure, failure. I have such an intense fear of failure, I don't fear change. I fear being stuck in my current job and feeling worthless and useless forever.
Any support, kind words, prayers, are appreciated.
Poet
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