Posted by Karen_kay on January 4, 2004, at 20:26:16
In reply to Re: (Long) He's not suppose to ask leading questions » Karen_kay, posted by fallsfall on January 4, 2004, at 9:42:38
But he KNOWS I want him to stop. And in my mind I'm screaming "STOP IT" but the words just don't make their way to my mouth. I can't say it. I can't speak up. I'm just a little girl and he's the adult, all over again. And he can feed me the bs about how I have the power, or whatever, but I know it isn't true. I just feel like I'm in the same situation again.
I mean he must be saying it for a reason. Maybe I need to hear it over and over again, though I really can't understand why. I know what happened and I really don't need him to keep telling me again and again. What could he hope to gain? Does anyone know? Maybe the fact that one day I might look at him and finally say, "Oh thank you! You've finally fixed everything! Thank you! By telling me again and again, week after week, things that I already know somehow I suddenly feel better! The anxiety is now gone. I'm no longer frightened or scared. Thank you so much. You'll no longer be taking my money."
I mean it's the fact that he just repeats the stories and accounts that I've told him. That's what bothers me. As if I don't think of them enough. I'd like to move on and try to find a way to "fix" it. Not just relive it. And it's not like he says "And how did it make you feel" because I HONESTLY don't remember. He just keeps repeating the stories. I'm tires fo hearing them. It's like he just wants me to keep having nightmares. I certainly don't want that.... Well, I liked him at the beginning of the week! Guess when I see him on Tuesday it might not be so much fun, huh? Come to think of it, it never really is much fun anymore....
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