Posted by Rigby on October 13, 2003, at 11:16:51
Hi Everyone,
Well, I talked to my therapist about her having that huge, unexplained bouquet of flowers sitting on the floor between us during our previous session. What I realized by talking with her about it was that I moved to a place where I felt I could not trust her: if she was incompetent and/or insensitive enough to leave flowers sitting like that there than why should I trust her with my inner most thoughts and feelings?
She volunteered that the flowers were from a colleague who was leaving and that she just should have moved them but didn't. She has *plenty* of room--she could have put them behind her desk. She said she left them there all day--that it wasn't just me that she saw while they were there.
Isn't a therapist supposed to be sensitive to this kinda thing?
I just gotta wonder if this woman is not playing mind games with me. I just gotta wonder what is up--she's admitted to making "too many" exceptions for me, admitted to saying things she shouldn't have said because she was taking a medication that made her hyper, admitted that she had a "different/closer/special" relationship with me vs. her other clients. I keep trying to figure all this and chalk it up to therapy being intense but maybe it IS her.
I am thinking of trying to not see her anymore. Maybe cancel this week and see how that feels. Then cancel again if that felt okay.
Arrrgghh!!!
poster:Rigby
thread:268937
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