Posted by Nikita on December 19, 2002, at 13:31:09
In reply to Re: Cutting affecting relationship » nikita, posted by judy1 on December 18, 2002, at 19:56:21
Thanks guys for the support, it made me feel better. Part of my problem is that I take anything slightly negative about myself and multiply it a million times, and never let it go or get over it (borderline personality disorder part of the problem). You’re right I think others just don’t understand SI. To a “normal” person they probably can’t fathom why someone would hurt themselves on purpose. But we definitely don’t need to be made to feel worse than we already do about ourselves. That’s one thing I’ve finally gotten through my head…while SI gives me instant relief from emotional pain, I only end up feeling worse in the long run, ashamed and mad at myself. I try to remember that when I feel like cutting. I told the bf that what he said made me feel horrible and he said he thinks I’m a great mom and of course isn’t scared to bring his kids around me, but that he just didn’t know the rules of the game when it comes to my cutting, and what might trigger it. Although I was certainly mad when I said do you know how that makes me feel when you say you’re concerned to have your kids around me and he said well I hope it makes you feel crappy enough to stop. That was not helpful.
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