Posted by Partlycloudy on November 7, 2008, at 10:41:59
Yoga, yoga, yoga.
I posted briefly about on the Psychology board:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20081104/msgs/861284.htmlBasically I decided to take a different approach to my therapist's request to "work though" the physical aches and pains that are directly related to my PTSD. I know that yoga allows me to be able to listen more astutely to what my body is trying to tell me, and I also know that I've been experiencing a pretty big disconnect in the work I've been attempting to do with regard to the trauma - my back has been going into spasms, my headaches have been increasing in frequency and severity. I know without a doubt that there's a direct correlation between the psychic distress I'm in and the physical discomfort I'm feeling.
I kind of feel like I had one of those V8 commercial moments. Thunk! on my forehead like a dope slap as I remembered that my yoga practice - abandoned, of course, when I started to spiral into this abyss, was just what could help get me back in touch with the emotional and physical selves that seemed to be at odds with each other. Today's practice helped to bring those two elements a little bit closer to each other. The body tight and creaking; the emotions raw and racing, but it felt restorative and my mantra to myself was that I was deserving of love and compassion. I almost even believed it.
It felt good to be back, and it's a very loving, secure and compassionate environment. Something that I've been unable to give to myself, but I kinda sorta can accept from the instructors at the studio, them being Professionals and all that.
So, that was my Assertive Action for today.
poster:Partlycloudy
thread:861290
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/esteem/20080816/msgs/861290.html