Posted by Sigismund on September 19, 2008, at 15:39:54
In reply to Self-esteem crash, posted by Nadezda on September 19, 2008, at 11:04:44
>My T seems to have no respect for me, and to be pushing me relentlessly, even contemptuously, to do things that I'm afraid to do. He seems to have lost patience with me, and to be resorting to this kind of constant annoyance at what he sees as my "excuses."
Hey, this sounds really awful. I was trying once to explain to my doctor why I couldn't do much (procrastination) and he asked why and I said I just didn't feel right and he reacted (in the way you refer to) by saying that I was just wallowing and that he was pleased he was brought up with a German work ethic. Only later did it come to me that I could have said 'O yes, you're famous for it' (As it was I just thanked him with what I hoped was a decently remorse-inducing depressed tone). I didn't go back; things had been getting slowly worse for ages.
>I haven't gone to see my T for my last two appointments, including this morning, because I can't face the barrage of criticism and also I feel pretty much like a complete failure. I honestly think I never will be able to go and do a lot of things that other people can do, and I don't understand what's the matter with me, and why my mind goes crazy when I'm faced with something that just isn't that hard.
Anyway, I thought I'd done OK just saying that I didn't feel right. (What did he expect? That I would say 'I have the knife in my bag'?)
It is nice if you can understand what the matter with you is, but if it was easy you would have already done it.
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