Posted by Deneb on August 25, 2007, at 20:41:38
In reply to Re: Binged *trigger* » Deneb, posted by Racer on August 25, 2007, at 11:46:08
I joined eDiets two weeks ago but I haven't been following their recommended plan of 1200-1300 kcal/day. I either go way overboard or undereat.
I emailed their nutritionists and I can get down to 94 pounds before I become underweight. My goal is 95 pounds now.
My BMI is high normal right now. My pdoc says I shouldn't waste my energy trying to fix a problem I don't have. I really truly cannot believe her when she says I'm not fat. She told me this yo-yo dieting will cause weight gain in the long run.
I think maybe I'm trying to fix something that can't be fixed by losing weight. Somehow I think I believe that once I'm thin everything will be well.
I think I've always had issues with food. When I was a child I was always underweight. My Mom would try to get me to eat and I would refuse repeatly, but once she stopped I would start crying. I think I wanted her to keep giving me attention by trying to get me to eat.
I also used to punish myself by overeating. Whenever I got angry I remember I would force myself to eat large amounts of food.
I don't know what my problem is right now. I think maybe this whole eating and weight thing has nothing to do with actual eating and weight. Maybe it's about something else.
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