Posted by Dinah on February 15, 2008, at 19:12:11
In reply to I statements, posted by zazenducke on February 15, 2008, at 13:38:20
I hesitate to answer when you won't be able to respond for a while.
I do appreciate what you told your doctor.
And I do understand why you feel the way you do about me. I've never intended to hurt you, but I recognize that on occasion I have. I've tried to convey my regret and remorse for that.
But I have never intentionally blocked you for something you didn't do. I don't like blocking anyone, I don't like blocking you. I'm not saying I just follow orders. If I didn't believe that Dr. Bob was doing his best with Babble, I wouldn't serve as deputy. If I didn't think the civility guidelines were a good thing, I wouldn't be a deputy. But blocking people is not something I enjoy doing.
Like I said to Toph, sometimes two people can want the same thing. But because of different experiences and perceptions and because they're different people, how they consider the best way to achieve that can vary. You want Babble to be a safe place and so do I.
I don't want to jump to conclusions, but I've gotten the feeling over time that I've lost any positive regard you may have had for me. I've felt a great deal of sorrow for that over time. But my therapist has convinced me that sometimes there is nothing I can do beyond expressing regret, and remorse, and a desire that things be different. I have never lost my positive regard for you, even on those occasions I may feel angry or sad.
I'm not trying to get you to change your mind about me. But on my end, the door to being friends is always open. What you do with that is up to you.
Tone is hard to read in words. But while I may have a poor sense of humor and little whimsy, I am boringly earnest and generally mean what I say.
Take care of yourself, zazenducke.
poster:Dinah
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