Posted by llrrrpp on June 5, 2006, at 12:48:20
In reply to Re: I'm sorry » llrrrpp, posted by AuntieMel on June 5, 2006, at 8:40:43
AuntieMel writes
>"It's no excuse, but you often make such >tongue-in-cheek posts I was trying to respond in >kind.>I really meant no harm. But I am sorry it hurt. "
Hi AuntieMel,
I know that I make a lot of tongue-in-cheek posts. Perhaps you had me figured for a court jester. That impression is fine. I also have a lot of serious posts too. Basically I alternate between sorrow and silly. That's me.So I try to be VERY explicit when I am concerned that something might be taken the wrong way.
This is my original post, which started the thread
Dr. Bob,
sometimes we want people to punish us and tell us how nasty and rotten we are. We need some support and help to push us over the edge. Can we have a board were we say awful things about ourselves and then people respond and tell us that we are even more terrible and wretched? This site is too warm and fuzzy sometimes.Perhaps as alternative to block or warning someone can be sent to the punishment board and be asked to post something that makes their inner child vulnerable
The last paragraph was a farce, but the first paragraph is completely sincere. All parts of us want validating, not just the kind innocent parts. The ugly parts want people to understand them too.
Sincerely,
-llrrrpphttp://www.dr-bob.org/babble/admin/20060525/msgs/652332.html
please note, that I wrote that the "first paragraph is completely sincere". I don't know how to say it any better. I was in a very dark place when I wrote this. i knew exactly what I was writing, and I knew exactly what I was asking for. I knew it was uncomfortable.
So, I get your response, and I'm thinking, "Okay, I will save AuntieMel for a bad day. When I want it to hurt, I know where to go, and what to do." That's all I wanted. It's simple. Hard things are easier to do when you have some support, right? I was hoping that you would be there for me (for the crazy part of me). I think I was very clear in these two posts.
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/admin/20060525/msgs/652332.html
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/admin/20060525/msgs/652370.html
So, what will it be AuntieMel- are you reneging on your offer to support me? Are you still game? I need to know. I can't expect the crazy me to think rationally, so I like to have all the pieces in place before I arrive at the party.
yours,
-llrrrpp
poster:llrrrpp
thread:652332
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/admin/20060525/msgs/653208.html