Posted by special_k on March 25, 2006, at 20:52:23
i was just wondering. i'm sorry i can be a bitch sometimes. i think i'm alright and then i'm not and then i am and then i'm not. sometimes i feel like a cat been let out of a bag and sometimes i'm grateful and sometimes i'm all claws. i'm sorry :-( i'd change it if i could i wish i could.
have you been busy? i worry you will get sick of us. that you have had enough of us really. and you are trying to extract yourself. have you been busy more often lately over the last year or six months or so or whatever... are you trying to extract yourself? i can't tell... but i worry about that. that you get fed up / pissed off with us and you just want to leave us to it :-(
or maybe you tremble sometimes cause people get so upset. and maybe you worry everytime or sometimes when people go off that it will just keep escalating keep escalating and that this just might be the conflict that blows the boards apart. maybe you do.
or maybe you don't. cause it has happened a lot before. and maybe while it feels that way to a lot of us here... that this could be the conflict that blows everything apart... maybe you know better. and it really doesn't get to you. or maybe you kinda wish people would just bugger off. and if things blew up then at least you wouldn't have to do this anymore.
i'm sorry i'm sick. i wish i wasn't. so i could be a better person. to babblers in general. i'm sorry. you are still around? i hope so. please don't go away :-( i'm sorry i'm so messed up :-( i wish you could babble with us more. you used to do that a bit more. i think. or mayb eonly after a conflict. i do wonder sometimes if that is part of (unconcsiously) why there is conflict sometimes. so you come back. there are cases reported of a guy with split brain trying to beat up his wife with one hand and trying to protect her with the other. controversy over that... but still. i guess ya don't need a split brain to feel conflicted. why does it have to be that way? i sorry :-( and i sorry the boards seem to do that sometimes :-(
i wonder how you feel about the boards. they didn't start like this... but they evolved into something huh. i wonder how you feel about hte boards. maybe you feel conflicted too. sometimes you like em and sometimes they drive you nuts. or maybe you don't feel very strongly either way. maybe sometimes they are a bit of a bother and sometimes you get a bit of a smile. or something.
i think it is impossible for us to know. sorry to go on :-( but i wish you would come back. you used to post about what you were reading sometimes and stuff like that. that was cool. sorry.
poster:special_k
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