Posted by 10derHeart on July 9, 2005, at 19:19:33
In reply to Re: All of this... » 10derHeart, posted by AuntieMel on July 9, 2005, at 17:18:34
> I'm sorry if I upset you. It certainly isn't intended to hurt someone as kind as you are.
*You* didn't upset me. The entire situation does. Didn't mean to post in a way that made it sound like it's just you. I shouldn't have mentioned the DNPs, since I have ZERO knowledge about the situation behind that. Sorry about that - I slipped, and was insensitive because I was so surprised to suddenly see them...
> I am doing what I have to do for me. Maybe those requests will allow me to stay here. Maybe not. We'll see. I just know I'm so angry right now that I have to put up a wall or I will melt down.
I totally understand and respect your right to do that. I really do.
> I've always tried to stay out of emotional arguments around here, but this time I just can't. And it hurts me, too.
I know. I hope I didn't say anything that sounded like I didn't think so. Choosing to say *DNP* to anyone, from someone as friendly and reasonable as you, has to come from a pretty darn hurt place, for sure. For me, the pain comes right through in your posts.
It's part of what got me impulsive enough to post. Too much pain seeping through the keyboards of many... :-( I'm lousy at avoiding or not soaking uo too much of other people's emotions sometimes. Okay, I'm lying....ALL the time. It's something I learn to live with. (Thank goodness for therapy.)
I shouldn't have posted. Just "crying for my friends (and potential new friends)" - in public, I guess. But I'm hardly suffering like the rest of you. Hopefully time and distance will do a world of good.
And Mel, I completely missed the post about your (IRL) friend earlier. That's awful. You must be under so much pressure, and completely frustrated. My mom was a cancer victim many years ago, when medicine wasn't nearly what it is today. And I've dealt with this with others I love, too... (((Mel))) I pray it's a cancer that can be aggressively and successfully treated - we've come a long way with that. I'm sure your friend understands the limitations of distance, etc., when these things happen..but it still s*cks.
Ahhh..this is creeping away from admin issues again....anyway, I'm thinking of you.
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