Posted by linkadge on May 22, 2020, at 15:40:14
In reply to Re: sleep - hypomania » linkadge, posted by undopaminergic on May 22, 2020, at 0:14:19
I just mean that I start to recede into myself and start to feel disconnected from the world around me. This causes some depression (in the sense that I start to feel its impossible for me to change).
I also have problems that I haven't been able to identify. Certain meds make me feel very socially disconnected. Effexor does this. It almost makes me feel a bit autistic. For example, I sense a joke, I understand the humour, but I have no emotional reaction to it. I feel cold and distant. Almost like a flat affect. I can have these symptoms even when I'm not depressed. Because I can't connect with people, I have long since stopped maintaining social connections. This hurts my recovery as I start to feel more isolated.
It's like there is a wall between me and the world. The world is projected on the wall. I can see and analyse the projection, but all emotional interpretation is blocked. Helpful for severe emotional overload....yes....but not something that can ever get me to recovery.
There's just no proper flow. Things aren't integrated. It's like Effexor puts little walls up.
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