Posted by rose45 on April 24, 2019, at 3:46:54
In reply to Re: tolerance to maois - peter kramer, posted by linkadge on April 23, 2019, at 15:09:17
Thanks to all for your feed back. Some is so technical I really dont understand it. For me, when the maois work, I become a totally functional person. When they dont work, I cant think, work, make decisions and terribly fearful and cant do anything much. My brain does not work properly. Its a complete black and white situation, which I dont think applies to the majority here, who manage to continue working etc... and for whom this is more of a kind of fine tuning. That is why Im desperate, and I cant cope with life, extremely fearful and anxious and at the moment taking valium for sleep.
Inability to sleep has been a long time problem for me. It was in 1990 that I had a sort of 'breakdown', when I was occasionally taking temazepam and it stopped working, and I could no longer function or think straight. I still dont understand how I could have become so depressed and anxious and ill as a result, but have suffered from depression all my life, and I suppose it was building up silently.I always refused to take anti depressant medication, and practiced meditation etc. From that time on, I cannot function at all without meds.
Nardil was a miracle and I did manage to sleep without meds on nardil which worked for 23 years. I became 'high' on nardil too, but otherwise never had symptoms of bipolar. Have been on 30 mgs of parnate for 5 yrs, and stupidly reduced it when I became a bit too 'high' on it....Ive learned you shouldnt play around with the doses. In my case, it screws everything up...Ive been back up to 30mg for one month and Im now on 40 mg...since one month. and in the uk, they wont let me go higher and in any case 50 mg was making me far too wired, and I couldnt stand it. Cant bear the thought of having to experiment with other meds, as I become totally incapacitated when that happens, and have noone to take care of me.
Nothing else works for me. Seroquel makes me suicidal. I am very scared. I think fear/anxiety as well as depression ares my main symptoms.
Those words of peter kramer have really frightened me, though it seems that several on here have had drugs poop out on them, and managed to alter their meds without becoming suicidal as I do.
Thanks for all your ideas....and for taking the time to answer.
rose45
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