Posted by porkpiehat on December 19, 2018, at 11:43:15
In reply to Re: Were you apathetic and indifferent on SSRIs...? » porkpiehat, posted by SLS on December 19, 2018, at 9:26:28
> Hi.
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> Which MAOIs have you taken? What dosages? What were your reactions to them?
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> Have you ever tried an antipsychotic that demonstrates antidepressant properties?
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> Abilify
> Saphris
> Latuda
> Seroquel
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> What about Remeron?
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> How do SNRIs affect you?
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> I'm wondering if there might be some indication that Lyrica would be beneficial given your experiences with alcohol.
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> - ScottI have tried all the MOAIs...Parnate, Marplan, and now Nardil. My responses has been good in terms of interpersonal anxiety, less frantic/hysterical/neurotic (bordlerline ish traits). Terrible in terms of numbing and compulsive behavior, not caring about my wellbeing, detachment from loved ones. Sedation/exhaustion and motivation suck too. Many have contributed to this "I don't belong here; something is wrong; I am in trouble; police lights in the mirror" kind of amorphous fear. Sleep, of course, is a constant problem. I have become a chain smoking alcoholic, much like I'm on coke or speed.
I have been at or just below therapeutic levels, mainly because the bad symptoms tend to get worse with increases, and I can't imagine when I would take the extra doses because I usually feel like garbage after I take them.
I thought I had hit a good stride with Nardil, 45mgs...dosing 15mgs in the am with 50mgs modafinil and 100mgs lamictal; another 15mgs nardil in the early afternoon; and 25mgs lamictal and maybe 2.5 mgs ritalin in the late afternoon. Last 15mg nardil at the end of the day....Sleep meds vascilate between ativan .5 mgs, trazodone 25-50mgs, and gabapentin 100 mgs.
Then I stopped drinking and I felt like I was on nothing at all...apathetic, throat so tight I felt like I was choking, and bad interpersonal anxiety/cognitive skills. I am thinking that the alcohol is boosting the effect of the Nardil. Had a few drinks last night and today all of those symptoms are gone...
I'm very interested in your thoughts about lyrica providing relief somehome similar to alcohol!
The antipsychotics have all made the serious blunting and detachment worse for me.
I hated effexor I couldn't get about 75 mgs I felt so numb and hateful, detached. I tried desipramine for a few days and I felt hyperfocused and very sad. Wellbutrin with celexa or lamictal made me feel good for a few days before becoming very tired and dissociated. I tried nortriptyline for sleep on MAOIs and I lost interest in a lot of things, couldn't sleep either.
I'd like to cut the cord on MAOIs because the detachment and compulsiveness have been constant and I'm not doing anything to make my life better, just hedonistic stuff. However I don't have any hope for a better treatment.
I'm wondering if clomipramine would be the way to go so Im not constantly taking pills throughout the day and walking this crazy tightrope, being thoroughly numbed out like SSRIs, or dying drunk and fat in a gutter somewhere.
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