Posted by rjlockhart37 on September 25, 2018, at 1:24:55
just wondering, my lamotrigine was increased to 400mg, it starts to work and i feel less scattered and moody, but i have to say ... like I've posted here before, my original diagnosis was ADHD, and depression. After all those traumatic events of being ripped off everything and thrown on anti-psychotics, basically, i just stayed with it, mood stabilizers do work, i feel less irritable and scattered, gives a stable feeling. But.. have to say, there is some dopamine depletion, when i get on net, ill run out of ideas to do, and not be spontaneous, i hope that stuff dl-pheanyaline didn't damage the nervous system, so stupid. Fell spacey sometimes, but obviously, i've got to move on and not stay in this drift, i don't really know what's gonna come next. I've resorted to being own therapist an spending long hours writing what feels and mapping out solutions. Staying up nights, planning on the person i want to become, and how to handle stress and problems. I was thankful for my past therapists and doctors, but they're gone, and I'm left only to myself to figure out what to do. I've learned to enhance insight, and build ideas and insight, being away from medical help, mind just took it's used to venture out and create things. Still, i don't know ... i hope i don't stay adrift anymore. To do anything requires choice and action. It's just when i get out, and start doing work or ... i frequently fail or fall behind, so it's kinda of a fear. Hopefully, I'll move out, and teach myself to do things, learn to solve cognitive problems through analysis, and action. That's all i just wanted to write, been holding that in for a while. This is just a thought, i really don't wnat this to be a headline or direct post, i just wanted to write what feel. Anyways, that's it. Thanks for reading, and good vibes.
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