Posted by jonhed on May 3, 2016, at 18:09:08
I just want to say to everyone on this forum: Thank you!
Thank you for posting your experiences, thank you for being humble, honest and supportive to everyone that seeks help in depression, mania or psychosis.
I get all warm and emphatic when i think about how many hours i've spent here and how much it has helped me.
At least two years i've been an active lurker, and that concludes like at least(!) 2 hours a day.
When i looked it up on the calculator, it is over 30 days of active reading.
Absolute amazing and i don't regret one hour of it.
Without trigger someone, i think that i would've maybe be in a very dark place without your advises.
I choose to stop there.I'm meeting a new pdoc next week hopefully and going to ask for nardil and high dose of clonazepam or nitrazepam as i taper up nardil. I very much liked the chemistry in maoi drugs and find it very interesting. i got an 6 month prescription parnate for about a year ago but could just eat one and got panic attacks and extreme paranoia over the tyramine reaction and hypocondrical, witch i clinically am, but it was unbearable. i could not continue because i didn't had an anxiolytic to cope with my initial hypocondria (my hypocondria is mainly that i think, every second of the day, that i'm going to die from every substance i take. even ssri.)
But i really can't live like this anymore, i am very suicidal because of my inability to function as i have strong social fobia and and personality disorder.okey, conclusion.
Do someone think i would be helped by that combination and did i make myself understood?
That i can take every medication if i have benzo the first month, untill i feel sure about the substance
I was thinking this:
day 1 - Nardil 15mg clonazepam 3mg
Week 2 - Nardil 30mg clonazepam 3mg
week 3 nardil 45-60mg clonazepam 3mg
then taper of the clonazepam slow slow slow, until i am completely calm about the side effects.
I am that type who has to do this drastic things because science i've got to a point when everything started to feel dangerous at my heart, even if it's not the case, in my head it is. science then i've not taken one medicine, this is 1 whole year now and i can't get through the first 3 days on new medication. i's f*ck*ng horrible and i don't want to live like this anymore.
All i'm asking my pdoc for is some benzos to make it less scary in the beginning. couse i need nardil, i just know it.
but i CAN'T without a benzo at the start.I hope this goes well, couse i can't go on living in this fear anymore. i am suicidal and i hate myself for being like this, i really HATE myself. i'm f*cking worthless as a human.
do you guys think i have a good plan?
I'm gonna be consequent on this one for my pdoc. this or nothing. no more b*llsh*t medicationsed over 40 different combinations of everything from antipsychotics-antidepressants (every antidepressants we have in sweden, and it's alot, same with the antipsychotic, an bare with me now - i am not psychotic, that was also for SA.
I don't feel like writing the whole list but i think most of you know what i've been through, changing meds and that stuff.Does it sound like a good idea?
i start buprenorphine in august, and that is for psychiatric problems and addicition (been clean for a year now). and bup on and maoi, that can't be a better combo on me i think.
LOVE TO ALL OF YOU / J
poster:jonhed
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