Posted by b2chica on June 29, 2015, at 14:46:47
are two more that i can soon put on my 'did not work' list..
i am just beside myself with frustration and misery.she's taking me off latuda (i'm down to 20mg) and have slightly more energy throughout the day.
i'm starting 60mg fetzima tomorrow, but to be honest I'm not really noticing anything major happening here. ...at all.i am finding myself in a very confusing state as of late. i have brief thoughts of worthlessness to the point of thoughts of 'offing self', however i know that is not what i want. i have reasons to be here, things i need to do....yet i have no desire to do them, attempt them nor do i really care if i achieve anything...every. that and i can only seem to see my failures in life... EVERYTHING, from major mistakes to little ones.
i was actually thinking of this as i was driving home from dr. appt, and i wasn't paying attention to my speed and had some guy shake his hand and scream at me to 'slow down'... so of course i realized what an absolute HORRID offense i just committed and how i really shouldn't be allowed to live. ..
yes., that is where i'm at.
when i write it, it logically sounds ludicrous, yet... the emotion is there and not controllable.
i know this is all the disease, but what a horrid life this seems to be these days."What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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