Posted by 90%there on August 20, 2014, at 3:51:30
In reply to Re: Intubation and delisions, posted by alexandra_k on August 19, 2014, at 23:34:50
No it wasn't hazy. Not really. Like I said there was no questioning my reality. What happened was real (to me at the time). Even the memories seem quite real. Some awful things went down. I love horror films but couldn't watch one quite yet. A few 'transitions' thru time n space occurred which almost gave the 'game' away. If I was fully prepared for it maybe I would have held onto the knowledge that this is what to expect in intubation. But no such luck.
Also like I said, The drugs/drink may have 'triggered' this. But it was the forgetting my insulin that put me there. I wasn't heavy drinking/using at the time. And the sudden withdrawal of 3 antidepressants. Double whammy!
A lot of my wanting to die came from the belief that I was gonna be killed anyway. One night all the staff had seemed to be replaced by lookalikes. They had no name tags (as all hospital staff must wear). And each had a hidden gun pointing at me- I could see the lenses lol. One night a gang even ransacked the ward (in Mexico this was, even tho I was actually in England). 'I' was the one they asked as to where the 'stash' was. They took all the meds, dug the floor up with a JCB for hidden cash then returned 12hrs later for the rest and to hide their tracks. For some reason I had something they wanted. A purple coloured stone. I wont go into how I got it. Another story within a story. I even remember the head-Doc's PA trying to erase the footage from the CCTV.Thanks 4 reading
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