Posted by Zyprexa on May 10, 2013, at 20:25:41
Well a few days ago I lost track of weather I took my zyprexa. And didn't realize I haden't taken it untill the next day. Yes I woke up at the crack of dawn. Or about 3 hours after I went to sleep. Probably the only reason I slept at all was the alcohol. So I took z a few hours after waking. later it put me to sleep. And that night I missed one of my doses of perphenazine (I take 2 a day). Anyways I missed that 4 am dose of P 3 nights in a row. Not sure why I was sleeping so much those 3 days. Especialy with out P. So I noticed one morning that I had missed all these doses and took my normal morning dose and and extra one. When I was driving to work I suddenly had this sensation that I didn't know what I was doing. Very scary. It was like I didn't know where I was going for a few seconds. The same thing happened last year when I was on a greatly reduced dose of P, just to please my Pdoc, so she would know it was working. Back then I had the same sensation at work where I couldn't think of what I was supposed to do. I was standing there freeking out wondering what I was supposed to do. After a few minutes I started to realize that I was supposed to pick up the pizza and put it in the bag. How simple is that? Anouther time 12 years ago I was off the zyprexa and not on P back then. At a gas station delivering donuts and I knew what I was supposed to do, which was stare at the cealing . But I realy didn't know I was supposed to put the donuts in the bin. Did this for about a half hour. Before the people at the convinience store called my boss. Last night I realized what was happening at work yesterday was the same thing that I was doing back in 97 before my hospital stay and any meds. It was that I didn't realy think, I couldn't think. Sort of didn't know what to do thing. I was in college back then. I would stand infront of the school door and just stand there like I was frozen in time. Not really sure of what to do. There was a lot of this back then in college my second semester. I was scared to go to the deli and buy roast beef. Feeling like I couldn't think or know what I was to do. Anyways the college tried to work with me and eventualy called my parents to come get me. Dad took me to Pdoc in Delaware. Who said I was thinking very fast and wrote script for Z. Unfortunatly I had to go back to Canada right after this, where they didn't have Z back then. So I was put on risperdal, which for some reason I didn't like taking and would hid them. This ended me up in the mental hospital. Because I was out in the shed frozen just standing there and my dad came out and saw me. I didn't respond to him, I was thinking and at the time I was thinking I don't know what to do. So I just fell over and froze as hard as a board on the ground in the snow. They sent an ambulance which took me to hospital. Which I stayed at for 3 months. yes I took meds not sure what but the only thing I remember about the stay was being locked up in a room having crazy dreams 24 7. They say I was catatonic and dilucional. I was dreaming of my friends. But it was so weird in the dreams. It was not normal reality in the dreams. All I wanted to do was get out of these dreams. And back to normal. I'm not sure because I don't remember this but I think they gave me ECT that time in hospital. Anyways they eventualy let me out and I was happy and normal again. But guess what I didn't think I needed my meds anymore. So I didn't take them and went the a different mental hospital. Each hospital stay felt like prison. Plus it was a locked ward. So 3 more months. This stay I remeber getting the ECTs. My brain was mosh. I remember more about this stay. But they let me out after 3 months and people say I was not normal after that stay. Anyways I moved to the US again and was doing horrible on the risperdal for 2 weeks. Then I finaly got zyprexa and I started living life again just like that. Hard to belive.
Anyways I just wanted to say what its like when you can't think, because you are off meds. Atleast for me.
What I don't understand is why just the z didn't stop these thoughts of can't think, when I was forgetting to take my P? Could it be that the generic is not as good or that my mental state is not as good now . Cause I took just zyprexa for so many years by itself and never had problems. Wasn't untill after my Abilify trials that my meds didn't work and its been that way not for a long time 6 years now. That I need the P also. Also Z does not make me eat like it used to at the same dose. Why do I also need P now. the origional plan was to switch off z and onto P. But that never happened I ended up with both. Is it posible the z is fake? Or weaker now. Whats going on??
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