Posted by rjlockhart37 on December 2, 2012, at 20:41:01
i was reading a long time ago that psychopaths usally have superfical charm...they have real good words, and seem like really cool people...they dress vary well, and intelligent...but they have their devious plans they never disclose for self gain, and usally cruel actions to others later, depening what their goal is. Well that's a common thing in america lol
but I have to say, the people I know, im terribly bad at relating...so i learned kinda go with flow socialization. It's like saying "wonderful to see you, thank you have a good day" as a pet awnser...and then walk out of the room and say thank god im out of there....
do this with alot of social stuff, yet when I go to bed i really know thats not true... social mechanism to survive in the world with out having to be exposed of all my deficets..
but im not a psychopath, like im just a little kid that cares about everyone but doesnt want to be exposed of his deficiets.all the therpy im in, im superfical in my own therapy! its like im in there to learn to better me and grow, im using social stuff to even appear normal to therapist...its just i've been humilated alot times and that's why I avoid it. Methamphetamines increase my thought patterns and intesity of relatonships but it usally makes you do wierd stuff...overfocused for hours, having pointless comments during a conversation, obsessed...behaviors, im done with it.
really....if im ever gonna find out who i am, playing mr. nice guy and go with the flow has to go... and whats my purpose, and what I can achieve...i mean these posts i write i know are not productive, nothing can really get out of this...expect for couple reads....gotta vent somewhere.
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
poster:rjlockhart37
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