Posted by rjlockhart37 on October 16, 2012, at 13:31:42
In reply to Re: manic behavior is starting...nueroleptics needed » rjlockhart37, posted by phillipa on October 16, 2012, at 10:05:41
she was angry I stopped fanapt but it made me feel awful....she drug screened me, I told her a short version of what I wrote about lucifer. She told me my manic symptoms are surfacing and will get worse into psychosis. She put me back on Zyprexa 20mg, and that's going to stay that way for the next few days. I just took the zyprexa and im calming down...mind is slowing, crazy thoughts have left. I know vary well, that my mind tries to make sense out of something it doesnt understand, making assumptions that im under affliction of the devil through sources I read on the internet that where almost exact of what I was having. Lucifer is a psychopath himself that presents himself as sophisticated and charming, he's tormented himself....and I felt sorry for him, but I realized that all this sickness I started havin started when I envolved myself with this. It could be paranoia with religious beliefs. He begins to get abusive with some of the people he uses kind words and gives rewards in reality, but under all that he's tormented and tormented individeels don't have the best intrest of other at heart.
So we'll have to wait and see....i hope I can break my thoughts free of this junk I intellectulized and thought was real. Just sometimes I think that we ignore things we don't want to believe and they turn out to as real as ultraviolet light we can't see, and causes harm. Thinking im infected with parasites and no one listens or even aknowedges that it could be a possibility....i have to direct explain the whole situation both psychially and psychologically for anything to get done....and still there's a chance it won't.
thanks for your concern, it may be psychological but the amount of adrenaline and anxiety I had...it drove me crazy...
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 300mg
Fanapt 16mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightenment
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