Posted by Meddy43 on March 2, 2012, at 1:37:20
In reply to Re: Too Many Meds ?, posted by Christ_empowered on March 1, 2012, at 23:40:48
Thank you for your input !
I was not compliant with the meds my pdoc prescribed for me; zyprexa, abilify and ativan. I tried, really hard to use them, but I got manic around new years evening. And didn't think I was ill, at all, and cut out all meds. Then my pdoc said that take at least 5 mg zyprexa. And I did. I asked for a secon opinion from another doc, and he suggested adding abilify 30 mg, and I did. But by the end of lest week, I got suicidally depressed.I can't even warm food for myself in the microwave, or take my jammies off, exluding wednesdays when I meet my pdoc. She disagrees with the meds, which I obtained from 2 other docs. I needed two docs also, because I needed drugs one physician would not prescribe; my suicide meds; ACE inhibitors, Beta blockers and Calsium antagonists. Even though I'm suicidal I will not kill myself until october. I love my pdoc; she has taken such good care of me. It's me that is being difficult. I have tried to commit suicide 3 times; once resuscitated, twice treated with hemodialysis. But my doc knows that I hate the hospitals, that they traumatize me, and I feel like a prisoner. That's why she hasn't committed me, even thou she said she thought I should be commited. But I promise I'm safe. and I really am.
I thought that since I won't live very much longer, I might as well use whatever makes me survive, and makes my life livable, hence the euphoric drugs.
Hugs, Meddy
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