Posted by n_shrimpie on February 3, 2012, at 0:00:54
first time i took prozac (20 mg) (started dec 1) i had no response except numbness and apathy, so i quit after 4 weeks (i should have given it 6 but i was desperate to try something else). once it started washing out of my system i felt great, 100% almost, for about 3 weeks, able to experience pleasure for the first time in years. i've heard that low doses of prozac increase dopamine, so could that be why it "worked" while it was washing out? once it was gone (about 4 weeks later) i reverted back to depression/anhedonia. I tried a second course because i only gave the first 4 weeks which may not have been a sufficient trial, and again, after 4 weeks i had to reduce it to 10 mg because of horrid anhedonia and flatness. my doc added abilify (dopaminergic right?), 1 week of 2.5mg and a week of 5 mg so far, and it's not doing anything except giving me insomnia, so maybe the anhedonia is not dopamine related? It's severe, i'm just going through the motions of life, and i've read that that's a dopamnine related issue. tonight, in desperation, i took 10mg of ritalin along with the 5mg of abilify, and i still feel numb. what is going on? i've had moderate-severe anhedonia all my life since i did a 6 mo prozac trial when i was 22. the only relief i've ever had is with lamictal, which was a miracle drug that eventually pooped out. also have horrid cognitive problems. will this ever get better? what can i do about the anhedonia? Every year my family takes me and my brother on an amazing 2 week ski vacation, and every year i force myself to laugh and pretend to have fun because i don't want to disappoint them or burden them with my depression issues. We're going to telluride early march, and i'm terrified that i'm going to have to fake it again. and the thought of being on such an amazing vacation yet not being able to actually experience it is heartbreaking.
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