Posted by B2chica on November 7, 2011, at 9:49:25
ok. so i think i know what mania feels like.
i think i'm finally feeling it Not med induced.in two days i've spent 465.00
***********However, i've been living in maternity clothes and tshirts for the last 4 years. and my DH promised last year that if i got to a size 8 that he'd give me $1000... well i did and he didnt.
so maybe this is just anger and getting back.also he ALWAYS complains thta i'm spending all our money.
well this is maybe also my way of saying if you gonna say it then i'm gonna Be it!*****************************
then we have holidays coming up...what if i spend money on me and kids get no xmas becaue of that??mostly i'm angry.
its 9:40am right now and i have SO much energy that i want to stab myself.
i'm angry that i'm spending money but i want to do more.
maybe spending money is my way of getting anger out??Somebody help pleaes? what you think? manic or just angry or just tired of looking like crap at work. most the money spent on jeans and tops.
i mean i was living in 2 pair pants and 2 bras. i would always have to wear them several days in a row. is it bad to want to wear fresh clothes everyday?
thanks to a girlfriend and therapy i actually WAnt to look like a girl.
but its expensive...i saw a dress at kohl's that i want. its a knit grey with flair at bottom and a cute satin bow around the waste. but of course if i get that then i need to get some support slip, tights, and shoes to match...
then i want some earrings.
and i saw this really pretty bracelet to go along with it.maybe i should just ...
could , not6 shop, not leave work.
i want to leave work.
thats the other thing. been out a lot from work lately...
skipping lunch and shopping instead.
skipping out early to go.i need my friend.
i've already taken 2 gaba this mrning.called pdoc sometime last week cant remember when he said to start zyprexa, well this weekend i txt him again saying my anger and aggistation is worse and can i up it. he called me.he said ok to up but he wanted to see me so i have appt with him this saturday. i upped zyprexa to 10 and i'm still feeling...BAD good. and reved up.
what do i do. i'm not used to this feeling.
i should just go home...
poster:B2chica
thread:1001825
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