Posted by floatingbridge on August 18, 2011, at 22:21:19
In reply to Ok. Here's more of my story., posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 20:20:11
Matt, I don't know. Part of the addict thing you are going through just doesn't sit well with me. Seems like you might be being blamed for some stuff that isn't yours in the process and not being listened to. Coming to terms with one's self and one's addictive potential is good. I have found it a delicate process for myself not to become too extreme or let others dominate with their own agendas.
That said, I think NA can be a place of fellowship, and a place to get out, talk to people, and not feel alone in your
struggles. IMO the backstories of most NA folks or AA folks is riddled witH backslides, using and hiding using, feeling ashamed and confused.You have a sponsor you like and can really really talk to that listens and does not judge?
I think you're okay, Matt. No judgements on my part.
I think the advice some folks about reducing your overall med load could be sound.
BTW, ADD is known for slow processing speed. So, yeah,
people 'look' or 'feel' dumb, or your word, stupid. But I swear it is not true. Quickness is not the only virtue in this world. Slow processing speed refers to only certain functions. There are things your brain is doing very well and perhaps even better than the fast processing, but it is difficult to get recognition from others and self for these things because usually thevemphasis is on performance speed. And I am not saying ADD isn't a problem. It is. I have it. I don't know what to do about stimulants either because I respond but they have a cost for me health-wise.Hang in there, Matt. Good luck tomorrow with the interview. And getting out there and talking with people. My fingers are crossed.
I dig a pony.
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