Posted by zonked on June 11, 2011, at 10:58:13
I thought I'd describe a pattern that happens during depression that I've brought up recently and have the veterans weigh in...
My depression is marginally improved. I have fleeting moments now where I do seem better, but they don't last. They seem to happen much later in the day. Little teeny bursts of sunshine through the clouds..
Every day, I wake up with a sense of dread - a terrible anxiety... butterflies in my stomach, fear, emptiness.... a feeling like I want to throw up.
This gets better as the day goes on. I am wondering if it's because I take my Nardil three times a day, and by the time I have taken my second or third dose, enough of the drug is in my system to provide some symptom relief. (This would support the argument that I need more of it in my system, sooner [i.e. a higher dose].)
I am sleepy at the "right" time to go to bed at night, but I know what's coming the next morning. It still hits me like a ton of bricks every single morning even though I know it's coming.
When the lady in the Pristiq commercial says "I feel like I need to wind myself up just to get out of bed," I'm thinking, damn, I know what you mean. (It's too bad conventional treatments like the SSNRI she's promoting don't work for me!)
Does this ever go away? Yes, it has in the past. Will it go away this time for me, so I can get up and have a "good morning!" attitude again? I hope so. Perhaps after the next dose titration...
-z
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