Posted by SLS on June 1, 2011, at 5:38:36
In reply to Re: Guilt, wrt: repeated treatment failures » zonked, posted by floatingbridge on June 1, 2011, at 3:35:13
> Zonked, I always feel guilty. I actually have apologized when treatments fail. My pdoc has tried to help me with this, but right now, I think he is frustrated beyond his usual range. I guess I am very difficult. I tried to tell him in advance, but he insisted on learning through experience.
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> I'm hoping his frustration (if that's what it is) can clear up soon. He's either trying to get something through my tough skull or it's possible he's just had it. I mean, I think he thought I'd have 100% remission at one point. It's tough not to feel disappointed w/a goal like that :-/It is polite not to disappoint people, especially doctors.
I am sure doctors become frustrated with certain cases of illness, but not necessarily with the person presenting with it. A good doctor knows the difference. They are human, though. Their frustration can sometimes leak out for the patient to see. Of course, it often happens that we manufacture reasons to believe we are guilty of disappointing when no disappointment exists. A depressive illness is capable of warping perceptions. So is the history of psychosocial stresses that influence one's personal growth and maturation. Do you really see frustration in your doctors countenance? Perhaps you are seeing a reflection of your own fears and insecurities.
Reality check!
- Scott
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.
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