Posted by Cydnie on August 24, 2010, at 15:19:30
I've only been taking pristiq for a little over a week and this last weekend my husband told me he has never seen me like I was - so depressed. Suicidal ideation. Two days before that, I was so f-ing happy, I was crying while looking at my ten month old, euphoric! I then got a little scared at how happy I was and wondered if that was what manic felt like (scary happy, kinda out of control?) Then the night before my suicidal ideation, I was so angry at my husband I wanted to "pop his stupid head off" but I love him so much! The anger was so inappropriate for the disagreement! After my suicidal ideation on saturday, and I didn't get out of bed all day, and just cried and cried, by Sunday I was scared to be alone and when he walked out of the house with my baby for a walk (thinking I was sleeping) I threw on shoes and went with him though I've been very reclusive for awhile. I was so anxious that day, I couldn't shower without him in the room with me. He was so worried about going to work on Monday, but luckily I felt a little better (I stopped the pristiq saturday, then took it again sunday and stopped again monday - I don't know my logic behind that, don't look for it!) SO I left a message for my pdoc and he told me pristiq shouldn't have affected me that much just being in me for a week!?! Is that true? I read other people saying that in the beginning is tough, I have never been manic before, have rarely been suicidal and especially not since having my baby (10 months ago). I read one other person on here a year ago wrote and sounded like they had an experience just like mine, but there were no more posts so I am hoping to find out if anyone else has had an experience like this? I either want to get off this damn drug, or ride it out, but I'm so scared of how I'm feeling that if it takes much longer to settle in, I'm a new stay at home mom with an extremely active kid. I can't not know the night before if the next day I'll be happy or suicidal. I was bad enough without this med - but then the pdoc says it isn't the med. I just dont' believe him, I think it could have affected me already. I'm sitting here worrying I sound crazy, worrying about hitting submit. Luckily I got a babysitter for the first time in ten months and I can sit here and write on pscyhobabbble! Oh yeah, I do sound off. All I wanted to do was get out of my stupid reclusive post partem hole that I had gotten into and out into the world for my new baby, and now I feel I've spent most of his little life trying to get me sane! Poor little guy. If anyone has any pristiq stories, I would love to hear. My pdoc says he could change me to lamictal (I'm not bipolar, but he thinks after this week I need a mood stabilizer). I wish he had more experiences with pristiq to compare mine to. I feel nuts, like I'm climbing the walls one minute, desolate the next, and almost euphoric the next - i never felt that before. There are many in betweens, where I'm just sort of blandly depressed and normal kind of anxious. If anyone can relate, I would love to hear!
poster:Cydnie
thread:959656
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