Posted by Maxime on August 7, 2010, at 14:24:49
In reply to Re: Really, reallly not well :( » Maxime, posted by Deneb on August 7, 2010, at 0:39:45
> Maxime, why don't you just flush the hoarded meds down the toilet or something?
I know this is going to sound strange, but I find it comforting to know that those meds are there. If I need to, I can action. I bought the meds off the internet last year. If I get rid of them I will just find another way. There is a busy train track just at the top of the street where I live.
I think having the meds have prevented suicide. Whenever I have a bad week or day etc. I tell myself ok, just one more day then you can end it. This will go on for weeks until finally I don't feel as bad anymore. I don't have to be impulsive and find something quick to do it. I take as long as it takes to make my decision. My doctor knows that I have the stash. He has tried to get it from me but I won't.
Thanks for caring Deneb.
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