Posted by tom2228 on June 23, 2010, at 11:02:39
In reply to escitalopram BAD TRIP, posted by linkadge on June 22, 2010, at 18:56:40
First of all, are you unipolar or bipolar?
Either way you are not alone... I've tried this sh*t twice, went up to 20mg as my first med in 2008 and tried again this past fall at 5mg, then 2.5mg.. ugh, BAD TRIP that esSHITtalopram is. You describe it so well.. you feel so lifeless and lost inside that you start to "feel" your surroundings instead. But in a dysphoric, confusing way.. it's like a trance. I personally felt so empty and confused but it's as if my brain "liked" it on a chemical level.. I would search to find that "good feeling" in the external world.. Every time I've walked/biked/driven around wondering if certain places would make my mood better, as if that feeling my brain was enjoying about the mindset physically existed in some corner of town.. I honestly felt possessed. o god bad memories. What a disgusting feeling.
I can't tell if SSRIs put me in a mixed state or if it's simply the drug itself that makes me feel so f'd up. For example, the impulsivity I get on SSRIs, it's hard to know if that's the manic part of a mixed episode or if it's just the fact that I'm so empty inside, leading me to do impulsive things because I'm devoid of actual emotions that would normally inhibit my behavior? Hopefully you guys could shed some light on this.
Either way no more SSRIs for me either. Its always some strange feeling or "realization" that tells me I should go back to one.. ugh never again.
to everyone else: If this med works for you, great, and I apologize for bad mouthing it. Just sharing my (really bad) experience..
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