Posted by Techno'n'PillBottles on May 6, 2010, at 6:19:07
In reply to Re: are you always honest about your med history? » g_g_g_unit, posted by floatingbridge on May 5, 2010, at 12:01:34
WOW! I can really relate. I have felt the need to hide a lot of history from docs before for the same reasons. I try to be as honest as possible about what meds I have tried and what the effects were, however there are things I won't tell them.
for example, in the past I have made some of my own med changes without consulting the doctor. not necessarily because I thought it was a good idea, but because I was losing my mind, it would take two weeks to see the doc, and I was fairly certain I could help myself by making a change. I tried to avoid doing anything drastic and make informed decisions. when telling the doc about things like this they seemed to lose a lot of trust in me that is very hard to get back and that can create a bigger barrier between you and your doc and, in my opinion, it can make their judgement about your meds worse because they are worried about the wrong issues.
I once could not sleep despite taking my full dose of seroquel and I was in a bad bad state so I took 2 extra doses. I had heard the doctors say repeatedly what a moderate dose is and used that as a gauge for what was safe to take, and I checked on the internet for what might be a dangerous dose. when I told the doc she got pissed off and made me pick up my scripts weekly instead of monthly. so I felt as if I was being punished for doing something not so bad and I was inconvenienced as well. this also resulted in repeated skeptical comments and criticisms when I made suggestions about med changes.
I recently had some serious problems with welbutrin so I decided to stop taking it for two days and then resume a smaller dose. it worked fine, solved my problem and helped me figure out what a better solution is for my meds. I definitely did not tell the doc about that because she would probably lecture me, trust me less, and be resistant to any ideas I had for med changes.
I'm definitely not trying to tell you this is always the correct way of thinking and my actual opinion is that the more honesty the better, however, some of the aspects of dealing with these people don't work that way.
My advice is this: always keep your best interests in mind. It seems like you are very clear headed about what you want and it seems you want to be healthy, stick with that. I always have to keep myself in check about "drug seeking behaviors" and such because I have had substance abuse issues, which have more to do with seeking peace than partying for many of us. always keep an eye on that in yourself because abusing meds or taking too many different things at the same time can make one too dull, too crazy, too sleepy etc. a big part of that for me is identifying the difference between boredom and serious issues. It sounds to me like you're not having too much of a problem with that right now, but it's easy to slip into that when feeling stable starts lacking excitement. I think the better you connect with yourself, the better any treatment will develop.
P.S. sorry I got a lil long winded, I get a kinda excited some times and i needed to get that crap about my doc off my chest. I hope some of it was helpful.
and in case you didn't check your other post about wanting someone to read your list, i wanted to give you my email: algaethescum@gmail.com
email me anything anytime, i'm glad to have people to talk with and i'll be glad if I help at all.atypical bipolar. delayed sleep phase syndrome.
current meds: welbutrin sr 100mg, seroquel xr 150mg at night. trazodone 50/100mg (just started)
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