Posted by kirbyw on February 2, 2010, at 3:50:40
In reply to Opioids for Depression, posted by jedi on February 1, 2010, at 13:52:59
I used Vicodin for seven years. First it was for real pain, then I noticed about a year ago, that I was beginning to use it for depression. Even a small daily dose of one or two pills (5/500) would take the edge off of my depression. But also I was feeling good without DOING anything that was directed at improving my life, such as socializing more, getting out of the house, calling friends, whatever. I could feel "content" in my emotional isolation, just staying at home all day.
So as of January, I discontinued all Vicodin, cold turkey as they say. My depression immediately worsened, but I forced myself to look for more outside social activities., and to be in touch with more people. And this has evolved pretty well over the past four weeks, and the depression has lessened. I do take 30 mg daily of Parnate and 1 mg of Clonazapam for sleep.
I miss my Vicodin which was great for getting out of bed in the morning, for insomnia, for anxiety and uncomfortable perceived physical symptoms with no apparent medical basis, for "nervousness" about going out with people, etc. etc.
My pain is now adequately controlled by Tylenol. I would like a Vicodin right now to get to sleep, because the Clonazapam is not doing anything and its 4 am.
But without the Vicodin I am making changes in my life, and that is the most important anti-depressive for me.
Vicodin is an insidious drug. It really fools you. Luckily I never let my dose get do high, so I have been able to stop without too much difficulty... I do go to N.A. meetings which also has a social benefit as well since I am meeting other addicts in recovery,who are very good people, and I am getting out of the house. Anyway, I am one month 'clean.' Yet I am aware that I could feel better emotionally tomorrow if I were just willing to go back to my Vicodin. But I won't do it.
Rick in Costa Rica
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