Posted by detroitpistons on January 23, 2010, at 20:18:11
In reply to Re: I'm scared..., posted by uncouth on January 23, 2010, at 16:30:28
Uncouth,
Is this a pretty easy job or is there a chance that your fatigue and lack of concentration will make things difficult for you? I mentioned this in my original post, but starting one of my jobs while depressed caused me to have a lot of problems and led to a harsh performance review, even though I'm usually very competent. This was a difficult job to learn though, and I couldn't think straight at the time. I kept asking the same questions over and over and I looked like an idiot. I made a bad first impression and it was very difficult to recover from that.
If you're having problems, maybe consider asking your doc about getting a low dose of dexedrine or adderall for a couple weeks or a month until the Prozac kicks in? It will give you some energy and help you to focus and be motivated. You will probably be 10x better. If the job is pretty straightforward and you can do everything you're supposed to do with ease, then ignore this suggestion.
Have you considered the healthcare field? Do you get satisfaction from helping people? Do you like science? I have searched through every career imaginable and I could never find something that fit me. It ate at me from the inside out.Then, I got laid off and it might've been a blessing in disguise. I decided to start taking classes about a year ago to get into healthcare (originally, my idea was nursing). Yesterday I "shadowed" a Physician Assistant and saw patients with him. I'm sold. I'm not saying you should do the same thing, but you could still find something you love. I'm 31 and starting over completely. There are people in their forties and fifties doing the same thing.
> i finished up my first three days of work this week. the depression and emptyness i feel went down in force as i started work, but i'm having trouble concentrating, and feel very mentally fatigued after a few hours at work (computer work). but its a job, and it's something to do with myself each day. it's not my calling and it's a bit mind numbing at times, and it's not like my previous work (oh why did i quit!!!) but it's something.
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> today, saturday, i am alone, in my dungeon of an apartment, and the depression is back in full force. so i guess work is goign to be good for my mental health at least. i'm just so very lonely, and feel so very defeated even though i have this job.
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> and i still don't know what i'm supposed to do with my life :(
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> love,
> uncouth
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