Posted by BearNCrow on August 5, 2009, at 21:55:28
so i'm currently hypomanic and super depressed. overall symptoms include: initial sleeplessness turning into over sleeping, irritability, agitation, high energy, obsessiveness, impulsivity, sadness, suicidal ideation, feeling out of control, racing thoughts, feeling unsafe, cognitive mud and i feel like i'm in this extended dissociative state.
current meds: lithium 1500mg, risperdal 6 mg, klonopin 2mg, my doctor just took me off of paxil 40mg to try and abort the hypomania.
this is killing me. i am super scared of feeling suicidal and being impulsive, as are my doctor and therapist. i don't actually want to kill myself, i just don't have a lot of control right now. my doctor says this kind of mixed episode is dangerous for this very reason and she wants me to feel better (preferable) or at least just be depressed.
i was down to 900 mg of lithium and went up to 1500 mg very quickly. going off paxil was sudden. the risperdal has been increasing from 2 to 4 to now 6 mg. i'm just not feeling my meds.
anyone have any experience with this kind of a mood state and these meds?
i have no idea if this made any sense. this was really hard to write. i'm just looking for advice, support, experience, a hello...whatever.
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