Posted by ParnateStarted2008 on July 1, 2009, at 23:11:10
In reply to Re: Hi.. Damn Zanax!!!!!!, posted by floatingbridge on July 1, 2009, at 13:24:42
> I don't really have advice--just support. I take klonopin at a lower dose and it works for my SA /SP enough. I understand disliking the benzo-track, esp. when you are finding you need a higher dose. Xanax doesn't work as well for me, either
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> How awful to wait that long for a pdoc consult.
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> Please write back and let folks here know how you're doing!
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> FB
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Good to hear from you FB.
Its hard to say how Im doing since ive become so familiarized with my situation. Living in fear of most all social situations. Its compounding. I cant believe I'm giving benzo's a trial at an almost effect dose for the first time ever! And wow I was right I need wayyyy too much.I never got addicted or had a craving for a benzo because they only work at 4mg clonazepam/equivelent of another but really I need 6mg clono.
Every bad experience I have in society is another experience to add to the list to never go there again. My mom asks me Why am I getting worse.. Well because the older I get(im 24)the more bad experiences I have around people (Panic, Paranoia, out of body, WAYY to self concious, now periods of agoraphobia and anger, alcohol induced euphoric manias)...
ANYWAY... aahh like I couldnt even check psychobabble untill I slammed a 8% beer because I was so nervous about if, what, who, when, someone would write back.. on and on.
Can I tell you a little background??? Ill make it poin form..
-First drug Paxil 20mg. Hypomania for 3 months till I withdrew because of side effects.
-Alcohol + Antidepressant make me euphorically manic.
-I now get mad easy because my life is passing me by
-I had 1 month remission on effexor (never had 1 drink) then it pooped out and I needed to add alcohol, lost my job and hospitalized for zanax/opiat/alcohol overdose..why? I needed out, I couldnt go to work and it was my last year practicum which was soo important.
-7 years at college was fun/sad/periods of hypomania(alcohol induced) or the paxil hypomania which does zip anymore)
-ALcohol and any antidepressant whether it works or not will be augmented by alcohol to the point where im sooooooo happy to be free of anxiety that i seem excessively euphorically manic. ends quickly untill i slam another drink. That is Why People think im bipolar. I am i guess BIpolar4.
-Im really just a sever social phobic who drinks because its the most effective and when antidepressant/mood stabilizers doses go up and down I can get hypomanic which totally throws people off because one second im scared sh*tless and dissapear, the next second I wanna go to the club or be so talkative and confident at a party/ get together.
k ill stop there... I went overboard Damn.. I only needed to say how im doing.. well I drunk 3 8% beer now so I wrote too much..
Let me know how you are...
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